Sometimes this blog feel like my own true friend who will never betray me.
A is still M.I.A. I found out why the Dungeon Dragon is no longer interested, one of my good friends and the dragon have decided to try out some stuff. He says he is afraid if he plays with the both us. Her feelings will be hurt. I feel betrayed by the friend, because she didn't even give me a ahead up. I would never treat her in the same manner that she has treated me. .Its unlikely when and if they do finish up I will want her sloppy seconds. I feel foolish to fight over a man. But I need cooling off time from her. I'm actually reconsidering the friendship. I haven't been feeling great recently and this has pushed me further into a melancholy mood.
I wasn't going out on the scene. I haven't been feeling great about being Mistress. Everyone I play with seems to fall by the waste side. My self esteem as Mistress is in the gutter and this little incident has made me feel worse. I tried to make myself feel better by drinking a bottle of wine and a few slips of vodka and dancing to hip hop in my underwear, bunny ears and sunglasses. I did feel a little better.
I am to afraid to go out on the scene and see the friend and the Dungeon Dragon in the same room. I like to drink and sometimes I forget what I say. I feel like I have the drunken potential to flirt with the friend ex just to get even. It wouldn't be nice thing to do her.
I'm very sad these days and I'm not sure why. Its not all the time. I don't have a particular reason. I'm not very happy with my body. I am starting to settle into my new job. I start studying Psychology in September which I am looking forward to . I don't have a particular to be sad.
I feel sad and I want to be alone most of the time. I feel this will help me feel better. I need to work on my relationship with myself. This little incident has spurred me on to work on getting fit and reading more about the scene and other books so that when I eventually return I will be harder better faster stronger
A is still M.I.A. I found out why the Dungeon Dragon is no longer interested, one of my good friends and the dragon have decided to try out some stuff. He says he is afraid if he plays with the both us. Her feelings will be hurt. I feel betrayed by the friend, because she didn't even give me a ahead up. I would never treat her in the same manner that she has treated me. .Its unlikely when and if they do finish up I will want her sloppy seconds. I feel foolish to fight over a man. But I need cooling off time from her. I'm actually reconsidering the friendship. I haven't been feeling great recently and this has pushed me further into a melancholy mood.
I wasn't going out on the scene. I haven't been feeling great about being Mistress. Everyone I play with seems to fall by the waste side. My self esteem as Mistress is in the gutter and this little incident has made me feel worse. I tried to make myself feel better by drinking a bottle of wine and a few slips of vodka and dancing to hip hop in my underwear, bunny ears and sunglasses. I did feel a little better.
I am to afraid to go out on the scene and see the friend and the Dungeon Dragon in the same room. I like to drink and sometimes I forget what I say. I feel like I have the drunken potential to flirt with the friend ex just to get even. It wouldn't be nice thing to do her.
I'm very sad these days and I'm not sure why. Its not all the time. I don't have a particular reason. I'm not very happy with my body. I am starting to settle into my new job. I start studying Psychology in September which I am looking forward to . I don't have a particular to be sad.
I feel sad and I want to be alone most of the time. I feel this will help me feel better. I need to work on my relationship with myself. This little incident has spurred me on to work on getting fit and reading more about the scene and other books so that when I eventually return I will be harder better faster stronger
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