A lot has happened since I last updated my blog. I got a new job, I had my operation, I think I might like A a bit, I indulged in my submissive side a bit more and I put on a few pounds from lack of exercising after my op. These things didn't happen in that order.
I think I like A abit which is a bit weird as that wasn't really suppose to happen. I'm not sure if its like or just feel comfortable in his presence. He makes me laugh a bit. I find his urge to be exhibitionist excites me. All the other boys are so boring. The last time we hung out we drank white spritzers and he let me try on his high heeled pink shoes which I could barely walk in. All I can say it works right now and I am happy. Although I am not the type of girl to put all my eggs in on basket.
A few days later I explored my submissive side with someone I met at the Camden Crunch. It was fun. It involved restraints canes, floggers, whips and a pin wheel. I am not really a subbie girl. But I do get off on letting someone punish me from time to time.
I have managed to get a new job. It was a shock but I am glad that things have worked out. The hours work well with Uni.
I had two procedures to see if they could find out why I am getting pain during sex and bleeding after sex . Unfortunately they didn't find a an exact reason for my pain. But they have seen some possible issues so it will be looked into over the next couple of months which is good news.
Since my operation I have been recovering at home. I have had a lot of time to think and sort out somethings in my head . I feel really focused now to achieve the things I want out of life. I also developed an addiction to Cake mania in my Nintendo ds and eating out of boredom. I have put on a few pounds which has affected my body confidence and makes me want to delay seeing A for as long as possible. I'm even dreading putting on my fetish gear to go and party next week as I wont feel that sexy. I know once I start exercising I will lose the weight. But in the mean time I have to live with it.
I think I like A abit which is a bit weird as that wasn't really suppose to happen. I'm not sure if its like or just feel comfortable in his presence. He makes me laugh a bit. I find his urge to be exhibitionist excites me. All the other boys are so boring. The last time we hung out we drank white spritzers and he let me try on his high heeled pink shoes which I could barely walk in. All I can say it works right now and I am happy. Although I am not the type of girl to put all my eggs in on basket.
A few days later I explored my submissive side with someone I met at the Camden Crunch. It was fun. It involved restraints canes, floggers, whips and a pin wheel. I am not really a subbie girl. But I do get off on letting someone punish me from time to time.
I have managed to get a new job. It was a shock but I am glad that things have worked out. The hours work well with Uni.
I had two procedures to see if they could find out why I am getting pain during sex and bleeding after sex . Unfortunately they didn't find a an exact reason for my pain. But they have seen some possible issues so it will be looked into over the next couple of months which is good news.
Since my operation I have been recovering at home. I have had a lot of time to think and sort out somethings in my head . I feel really focused now to achieve the things I want out of life. I also developed an addiction to Cake mania in my Nintendo ds and eating out of boredom. I have put on a few pounds which has affected my body confidence and makes me want to delay seeing A for as long as possible. I'm even dreading putting on my fetish gear to go and party next week as I wont feel that sexy. I know once I start exercising I will lose the weight. But in the mean time I have to live with it.
