I quit my stressful job as emergency call taker in October . I did for six years . I quit because I wanted to go University in 2013. I wanted to have a good career. I hope to do a certificate of higher education - Introductory Studies. It involves studying one main module and 4 or 5 other modules that you pick. I am thinking about Business Studies, Psychology, Professional & Creative Writing. Although at 30 I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up. I am hoping that by the end of this I will have a better idea of where I want to go next in life. I could of stayed in my old job earning good money, but I felt like I was going nowhere in my life. So I made a decision to change my life. I don't know how this will pan out. But I don't think I will regret my situation. I am giving myself 3 months to find a new job.
I am doing some admin temping part time at the moment to top my savings up . Its a role in mental health so I don't think its cool to talk about on here so I wont..
In May 2012 I started to indulge in S&M scene. It started with going to Club Pedestal. I wanted to go for years. But I could never find anyone to go with. But I managed to arrange it as meet up via meetup.com ( an open minded group which has since closed)
I had a good time at Club Pedestal and I started to think about Female Domination and if I could do it and what would I do. I joined Fetlife had fun email conversations with a few people which mostly lead nowhere. I met one lunatic who seem perfectly normal on the phone as we spoke a few times before meeting. We were suppose to go for a dinner and a drink. We ended up going to local park we chatted then he started to act weird. He was aggressive and his tone of voice changed it was almost like he became a different person. At one point grabbed my face and asked me to look into his eyes and repeat what he said. He said he was doing it to build my confidence. I was more than a little freaked out. But I felt like I should not cause a scene. We then ended up walking to another park and then he pulled his cock and told me that I own it now. The evening eventually came to an end but not before him asking if wanted to be spit roasted by him and his friend . At the DLR station He was like text me when you get in so I know you got home safe. I did text him when I got in - I'm home - interesting evening . He called me I never answered. He continued to call me and text me and email me weeks later. Then he stopped then I saw him at Kink Bar. I thought he didn't recognise me as my hair was different but that evening I got an email via fetlife - It was really good to see you. At that point I blocked him on Fetlife. This isn't the first lunatic I have encountered on there. I had a guy rant at me on msn messenger for over 20 minutes . because I said I wanted to go University. So now I'm a bit wary about responding to messages from people on fetlife. I have also stated in my profile if you aren't on the scene don't respond to my ad. I prefer to meet people on the scene and connect on Fetlife afterwards.
So far I have I had two subs who I met on the scene . Both are good fun. Its so nice to be in control and to have the power. I tend to get them naked, blindfold them, spank them hard, massage them, maybe use a gag or handcuffs and use vibrators on them, scratch my nails on their back, maybe feed them little bits of sweet stuff. I'm still a bit of pleasure and pain mistress, But I think as time goes on I will change what I do. I'm reading a lot of s&;m books and learning slowly. I have some rope and I want to learn rope bondage. A guy I met at pedestal ( with 20 years s&;m scene experience) is going to help teach me. I'm also going to submit to him. I'm a bit scared but I know he wont hurt and me. Plus I have to complete a negotiation document prior to play.
I didn't think I was going to sub again. My last experience five years ago ended in a mild panic attack after my master left me restrained to bed for over 25 minutes and I just started to panic. I was going thru a lot at issues at that time. Looking back I should of never been playing in that state
The reason I was inspired to sub again was that I went wildest s&m private party in my life. There were drugs - Coke, Ketamine, E. I got offered half an e tablet ,but decided it wasn't the right time.It had a fully stocked dungeon and medical room. I ended up getting my feet massaged and snogging a guy and jerking him off. He wanted to go down on me. But I wasn't in the mood. I was quite drunk but I think he was at the party with his cousin who attempted to convince me. He doesn't like sex as it hurts his penis so that I would let him go down on me. He was here on holiday till Tuesday, He gave me his number.He did call me. I didn't call back.I did get snogged by a random girl. I also got told off by a mistress as I missed my flogging target. I was warming up a sub for the cane but missed.. She wanted me to get on the bench for six flogs I refused as I was shy and drunk and didn't want to feel any pain at that moment. Later she told that I should of get on the bench as the scene is very cliquey. But I'm not sure how much I'm going to be on the scene and even the private party scene.But it was a turn on to watch people get whipped and spanked and it reminded me of when I was a sub and how I use feel after a good spanking a mix a joy and feeling powerful that I survived and it also made me feel so strong.
I am doing some admin temping part time at the moment to top my savings up . Its a role in mental health so I don't think its cool to talk about on here so I wont..
In May 2012 I started to indulge in S&M scene. It started with going to Club Pedestal. I wanted to go for years. But I could never find anyone to go with. But I managed to arrange it as meet up via meetup.com ( an open minded group which has since closed)
I had a good time at Club Pedestal and I started to think about Female Domination and if I could do it and what would I do. I joined Fetlife had fun email conversations with a few people which mostly lead nowhere. I met one lunatic who seem perfectly normal on the phone as we spoke a few times before meeting. We were suppose to go for a dinner and a drink. We ended up going to local park we chatted then he started to act weird. He was aggressive and his tone of voice changed it was almost like he became a different person. At one point grabbed my face and asked me to look into his eyes and repeat what he said. He said he was doing it to build my confidence. I was more than a little freaked out. But I felt like I should not cause a scene. We then ended up walking to another park and then he pulled his cock and told me that I own it now. The evening eventually came to an end but not before him asking if wanted to be spit roasted by him and his friend . At the DLR station He was like text me when you get in so I know you got home safe. I did text him when I got in - I'm home - interesting evening . He called me I never answered. He continued to call me and text me and email me weeks later. Then he stopped then I saw him at Kink Bar. I thought he didn't recognise me as my hair was different but that evening I got an email via fetlife - It was really good to see you. At that point I blocked him on Fetlife. This isn't the first lunatic I have encountered on there. I had a guy rant at me on msn messenger for over 20 minutes . because I said I wanted to go University. So now I'm a bit wary about responding to messages from people on fetlife. I have also stated in my profile if you aren't on the scene don't respond to my ad. I prefer to meet people on the scene and connect on Fetlife afterwards.
So far I have I had two subs who I met on the scene . Both are good fun. Its so nice to be in control and to have the power. I tend to get them naked, blindfold them, spank them hard, massage them, maybe use a gag or handcuffs and use vibrators on them, scratch my nails on their back, maybe feed them little bits of sweet stuff. I'm still a bit of pleasure and pain mistress, But I think as time goes on I will change what I do. I'm reading a lot of s&;m books and learning slowly. I have some rope and I want to learn rope bondage. A guy I met at pedestal ( with 20 years s&;m scene experience) is going to help teach me. I'm also going to submit to him. I'm a bit scared but I know he wont hurt and me. Plus I have to complete a negotiation document prior to play.
I didn't think I was going to sub again. My last experience five years ago ended in a mild panic attack after my master left me restrained to bed for over 25 minutes and I just started to panic. I was going thru a lot at issues at that time. Looking back I should of never been playing in that state
The reason I was inspired to sub again was that I went wildest s&m private party in my life. There were drugs - Coke, Ketamine, E. I got offered half an e tablet ,but decided it wasn't the right time.It had a fully stocked dungeon and medical room. I ended up getting my feet massaged and snogging a guy and jerking him off. He wanted to go down on me. But I wasn't in the mood. I was quite drunk but I think he was at the party with his cousin who attempted to convince me. He doesn't like sex as it hurts his penis so that I would let him go down on me. He was here on holiday till Tuesday, He gave me his number.He did call me. I didn't call back.I did get snogged by a random girl. I also got told off by a mistress as I missed my flogging target. I was warming up a sub for the cane but missed.. She wanted me to get on the bench for six flogs I refused as I was shy and drunk and didn't want to feel any pain at that moment. Later she told that I should of get on the bench as the scene is very cliquey. But I'm not sure how much I'm going to be on the scene and even the private party scene.But it was a turn on to watch people get whipped and spanked and it reminded me of when I was a sub and how I use feel after a good spanking a mix a joy and feeling powerful that I survived and it also made me feel so strong.
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