Its been a strange couple of months and I almost felt like I had lost my way and I didnt know where to turn and if I was ever going to feel better. I finally cut ties with the Ex this time its for good. He really tried to stay in my life but only so he continue to use me for sex when he felt like it. I knew this would destroy me. So I told him I need space and he has stopped texting me and this time I know he will never text me again. It makes me feel a little sad but ultimately its for the best.
The next little hiccup came almost out of the blue I was knocked sideways. I had been trying to get in contact with a longterm friend that I had known from primary school. In March or April she was suppose to be coming over for dinner but cancelled about 2 hours before I had already started to cook so when I got the voicemail I was annoyed and when she called back after I text her. I didnt answer as I was too upset. We arranged to do it another time. A couple weeks later I got a voicemail from her saying call me asap. I was at work when I got the message. I had no credit and from the tone of her voice it didnt sound like a dire emergency so I called her that evening when I got home from my house phone and left a message. A few days later I left another message as I hadnt heard back from her. The from time to time I would leave a voicemail. One day I got thru to her I said hello __________ its me and then line appeared to cut out when I tried to callback it just rang and rang. I didnt really know what to think at this stage. It just seem strange but I my friend had had issues with her phone before so I put it down to that. A few weeks later I called again after getting no response. I deleted her number I just got tired of all this. A month or 2 later I remembered I had a brolly and 2 dvds that she leant me. I decided to leave a message for her at workplace basically say I will drop your stuff off at work for you to collect let me know if you want me to do that . I hadnt heard back a few weeks later so I called to leave another message to say I was dropping the stuff off. I called I was put thru to the office. After I started to speak , her colleague gasped and said I passed your previous message and ________ has requested that you leave no further mesages for her. I was shocked I hung up the phone. I sat in stunned silence for a while. It would make a lot more sense if we had a big row or I had done something which I needed to apologise for. But Im not even sure what I did. I sent the stuff to her workplace in the post a few days later. Its strange thou she was a great support when I was going thru stuff with the Ex and I may not of made it without her, she saved my life and encouraged me to get the help I needed. She would let into exhibitions where she worked for free. She was a very good friend. I will miss her from time to time. But when I think all this. I am reminded about a saying about friendship - Some friends are for a reason, some friends are for a season and some friends are for life.
The next little hiccup came almost out of the blue I was knocked sideways. I had been trying to get in contact with a longterm friend that I had known from primary school. In March or April she was suppose to be coming over for dinner but cancelled about 2 hours before I had already started to cook so when I got the voicemail I was annoyed and when she called back after I text her. I didnt answer as I was too upset. We arranged to do it another time. A couple weeks later I got a voicemail from her saying call me asap. I was at work when I got the message. I had no credit and from the tone of her voice it didnt sound like a dire emergency so I called her that evening when I got home from my house phone and left a message. A few days later I left another message as I hadnt heard back from her. The from time to time I would leave a voicemail. One day I got thru to her I said hello __________ its me and then line appeared to cut out when I tried to callback it just rang and rang. I didnt really know what to think at this stage. It just seem strange but I my friend had had issues with her phone before so I put it down to that. A few weeks later I called again after getting no response. I deleted her number I just got tired of all this. A month or 2 later I remembered I had a brolly and 2 dvds that she leant me. I decided to leave a message for her at workplace basically say I will drop your stuff off at work for you to collect let me know if you want me to do that . I hadnt heard back a few weeks later so I called to leave another message to say I was dropping the stuff off. I called I was put thru to the office. After I started to speak , her colleague gasped and said I passed your previous message and ________ has requested that you leave no further mesages for her. I was shocked I hung up the phone. I sat in stunned silence for a while. It would make a lot more sense if we had a big row or I had done something which I needed to apologise for. But Im not even sure what I did. I sent the stuff to her workplace in the post a few days later. Its strange thou she was a great support when I was going thru stuff with the Ex and I may not of made it without her, she saved my life and encouraged me to get the help I needed. She would let into exhibitions where she worked for free. She was a very good friend. I will miss her from time to time. But when I think all this. I am reminded about a saying about friendship - Some friends are for a reason, some friends are for a season and some friends are for life.
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