I officially hate the word Ex like Fearne Cotton hates the word fiancee. Anyway the man I kind of consider an ex ( he lived with me for a few months) has my pink Nintendo DS. He was suppose to borrow it for a week initially in May 2010. The week came and I went and the DS was not returned. In June or July I sent him a text to let him know when he could return it. I got no response. Then I confronted him in text and told him what I thought of him. I got a response but not a good one. He needed time and space aka fuck off and leave me alone. So I did then at Xmas curiosity got the worse of me I started to unlock the door which I had closed. We spoke briefly twice and the second time he promised put the DS in the post . The DS is yet to arrive. I have left messages to try and confirm when it has been put in the post. But no confirmation yet. I know he is probably busy with all the changes in his life, but it take two minutes to confirm if you have sent something.
I still want my DS back but I'm afraid that if I really push it , it will just put his back up and he will get angry. I think that he thinks I'm doing this to keep in contact with him. I'm afraid he will think I'm doing this out spite,because he met someone else and is getting married and having a baby. I know he would prefer if I just disappeared.
I question if I have the strength to keep pushing for my DS even thou I want it back. It just sometimes seems so silly to be pushing for it , but my sense of entitlement overwhelms me. There is another part of me that thinks he may lost it,broken it, had it stolen or part exchanged it and doesn't have the guts to tell me. I'm not sure what to do now should I let go or keep pushing.. My friend says that sometimes when a relationship ends you don't get back stuff and you have to just deal with it. But I find it hard to let go , its just doesn't feel fair. I don't know why he would want to keep it.
I still want my DS back but I'm afraid that if I really push it , it will just put his back up and he will get angry. I think that he thinks I'm doing this to keep in contact with him. I'm afraid he will think I'm doing this out spite,because he met someone else and is getting married and having a baby. I know he would prefer if I just disappeared.
I question if I have the strength to keep pushing for my DS even thou I want it back. It just sometimes seems so silly to be pushing for it , but my sense of entitlement overwhelms me. There is another part of me that thinks he may lost it,broken it, had it stolen or part exchanged it and doesn't have the guts to tell me. I'm not sure what to do now should I let go or keep pushing.. My friend says that sometimes when a relationship ends you don't get back stuff and you have to just deal with it. But I find it hard to let go , its just doesn't feel fair. I don't know why he would want to keep it.
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