I joined Passion.com in 2005 after a awful dating experience.Since then I have being on and off with Passion.com.I decided I wanted to nice part of a relationship. The sex and friendship, but I wasn't really interested in the other stuff that came with. I aimed to find a fuck buddy and learn what I liked and disliked about sex when I started out. But it hasn't being easy. Its being a roller coaster. Its has had ups and downs.You meet someone you fuck a couple times, then it goes down the drain for any number of reasons.
So you start the search again and you fuck another person and you're a sex mismatch so then you don't see them again. You spend ages chatting to someone on line and you meet.But after it goes quiet.You search again,and so on.The things is I'm really so tired of meeting men and chatting them and then maybe shagging them at some point . I'm so tired of process of meeting a stranger. I'm tired of feeling so nervous that I'm going to be sick. I'm also too scared these days, when I was younger I was so reckless with my personal safety. I look back and wonder what was I thinking.I'm just too scared to keep meeting men from this site ( passion.com). I just keep thinking the more you are doing this you are putting yourself at risk.I feel very vulnerable these days. I find it too exhausting to keep starting up with someone else, every time a fuck buddy bites the dust.
I realised I'm never going to get what I want from this site (passion.com). I will never find a regular fuck buddy on this site. Maybe I don't even want one anymore, I have to accept things have changed in my life. I have changed from the girl who joined this site, she was in a bit of messed up at the time.I love casual sex,but I'm no longer willing to search it out. So I'm going to turn my profile off, but keep my blog going.PS: I found out if I turn off my profile, my blog cant be viewed, so its back on but i have no intentions of meeting anyone its too much hard work
