Breaking All the Rules

I broke all my passion man meeting rules last week. I really felt awful after doing it. My rules were there to protect me and my sensitive soul. I have being so stupid,but its nothing that I wont get over.
The rules are
*Not having the sex the first time I meet someone
*Do not bring men to my flat
*Keep conversation light and fluffy and dont get to personal and dont share too much.
*Check he isnt just looking for a one night stand

In the morning I felt like shit. Because I had let a stranger in my house, being very open with him, fucked him and possibly let him have a one night stand with me.The sex was fab. I got explore spanking a man and putting a vibe in his ass.But being open and talking about personal things is to too much for fragile me to deal with.Im in two minds part of me thinks the whole thing was a routine that this guy does all the time. Part of me maybe it wasnt and Im being too harsh. He told me one lie and I cant stop thinking everything word he said was a lie. I found the pre amble to sex so invasive.

I felt stupid cos I was the one who called him after he emailed me. I was paying for the pleasure of talking to him. I feel stupid cos I suspected I might get hurt and I still went ahead and did it. I knew I had all these rules and they were for my protection. I know Im can be super sensitive. I knew that he would probably not respond my text as he done before.I knew I would probably never see him again.

Im not labeling him a bad person at all just not the right person for me to have sex with. He asks too many questions. But I do think he ran one of The Game Routines or one of those how to get laid books routines. He was elusive at times and a couple of weeks I nearly told him to fuck off. But stuck around for a rumour which turned to be a false.

In future I need to be stronger and stick to my rules. I need to be remember to stop sulking so much;As it could of being worse. He could of stole from me,he could of damaged my property turned nasty and beat me up. The only thing he did was fuck me and attempt to tell me I was special which I laughed off.Because I felt like it was insulting my intelligence.