Back on the casual sex train

I'm back and open for business, roll up roll up. Give me your best lines. See if you can get a (cum) shot with hot MsLL22.Oh how I love to joke about these things. I'm not actually sure if I'm doing the right thing. I think I'm ready to fool around again.This time I'm older and wiser.I am having second thoughts. I was traveling home on the bus after meeting a guy I had met from this site. There were these 2 couples on the bus. They both looked so loving and so happy together. I looked at them I though maybe I should be seeking out a proper loving relationship with a man who actually cares about me and rather than having casual sex.But I'm a bit too selfish for a relationship. I just want to focus on me and what makes me happy. Relationship are hard work.Because of past experiences that I find hard to let go of. When I am dating I find it hard to do trust the guy . I get very upset easily. I believe that everything I'm being told is a lie. I over analyze everything.I am a bit paranoid and I get emotionally exhausted and end up dumping the guy.I will only know once I start having no strings sex, if the right way to go. Note to self: I'm getting a distinctive Deja Vu feeling about this post. I need to expand my blog topics and stop writing the same shit different day.