My cuts

My cuts are getting on my nerves. I feel so miserable. I aciddently pulled off the scab on my foot so thats going to take more time to heal. I just want to be back to normal. I find it so annoying to wait to be healed. I will be so much more careful in the future

Accidents will happen

It has been a strange week for me. I injured myself twice. I had started putting up picture frames in my new home. While I was putting up on frame the glass part fell out and cut my foot open quite badly. I was bleeding a lot but I wrapped a plaster around it and it stopped bleeding. Although it was a huge gash. I limped for a few hours and it was sore when walking downstairs.On Saturday morning I got up early to tidy my flat and finish my xmas shopping. I thought I would finally chuck the rest of this broken glass away. I went into passage of my flat entrance wearing my pyjamas as i opened the entrance door. I screamed in pain. I looked down and blood was poured out my leg. I was really scared I ran back to my flat into my bedroom grabbed my phone and ran to the the bathroom where blood went all over floor. I called for an ambulance. The lady on the phone was very nice. I was so scared she calmed me down explained i need to wrap the wound and press firmly with clean towel.I was so distressed when she asked me how old I was I stuttered and I couldn't actually remember for a few minutes.The ambulance came quickly. It was embarrassing i had to answer the door in my zippy from rainbow hoodie and my knickers.I couldn't put trousers on when bleeding so much. I also didn't want to damage any of my clothes by getting blood on themInitially when the ambulance crew arrived they couldn't find my wound. Eventually it was found at the top of my thigh. They asked how I managed to do that. I don't really know how I managed to do it.I had to go a&e minor by ambulance and had 3 stitches put in and felt like crap for the rest of the day.I believe these things come in three, so all I can think when will my next accident be. I shouldn't think so negatively. But I cant help it.

Best Behaviour

When you have not slept with a guy he is on his best behaviour. He does everything he is suppose to, he doesnt ignore you. He listens to you, he responds to your texts and emails. Because he wants to stay in your good books. But after you have had sex it changes, because he has got he wanted he doesnt have to be nice anymore, he can ignore if he feels like it. You then have to make a decison do you carry on trying to have sex with some you feel is ignoring you or just put it down to experience. I have to admit im an insecure and oversentive person. I dont think there is anything to ashamed of by saying that. I dont think its obvious to anyone that knows me that I am insecure and oversentive. I dont burst in tears if someone says something horrible to me. Its not the type of insecurity that will lead me to do things I dont want to do. I get really upset if people dont text me back. I feel ignored. I hate feel ignored as it makes me feel like I dont matter and I dont exist.The text thing is my personal problem and I need to learn deal with it. I want the attention of a relationship but Im on a casual sexual website. I cant have it both ways. I cant have attention and casual sex. It doesnt work that way. I probably need to learn to deal with the fact; sometimes people will ignore me. Its not always personal,but sometimes it is a sign that there no longer interested. I need to accept sometimes after sex a guy is no longer going to give a shit about me

Sexual Health

Im hopeful in the next couple of weeks. I can finally resolve the issue of my pain during sex.I have another one of problems that women suffer from woo hoo. I will take my antibiotics no drinking alcohol and no sex and buying and drinking rasberry leaf tea.I cant say I have any sexually transmitted regrets,but if I knew then what would be the consequences I would thought twice and would of protected myself more. I wish I had more sex education before I started having sex. Hopefully things will get better and in future I will be more carefully about who I have sex with and make sure it safe sex.

Back on the casual sex train

I'm back and open for business, roll up roll up. Give me your best lines. See if you can get a (cum) shot with hot MsLL22.Oh how I love to joke about these things. I'm not actually sure if I'm doing the right thing. I think I'm ready to fool around again.This time I'm older and wiser.I am having second thoughts. I was traveling home on the bus after meeting a guy I had met from this site. There were these 2 couples on the bus. They both looked so loving and so happy together. I looked at them I though maybe I should be seeking out a proper loving relationship with a man who actually cares about me and rather than having casual sex.But I'm a bit too selfish for a relationship. I just want to focus on me and what makes me happy. Relationship are hard work.Because of past experiences that I find hard to let go of. When I am dating I find it hard to do trust the guy . I get very upset easily. I believe that everything I'm being told is a lie. I over analyze everything.I am a bit paranoid and I get emotionally exhausted and end up dumping the guy.I will only know once I start having no strings sex, if the right way to go. Note to self: I'm getting a distinctive Deja Vu feeling about this post. I need to expand my blog topics and stop writing the same shit different day.