Girl on Girl

I have be going through a bit of funny phase in the past couple of months. I had kind of stopped finding men sexually attractive. I did find myself noticing women more. I was even considering going to lesbian club with a friend. I wanted to see how it felt to explore my bi curious side. I do like the idea of being a lesbian. It can be great to be different and no more birth control. Being a lesbian would make feel really cool and edgy.

My friends would very shocked.But in the end I didn't go the club . I stopped being interested in going to a lesbian club and I had a falling out with the friend I was suppose to go with.I'm really not sure what to think about it. Sometimes I notice a woman because of the way she dressed. Sometimes I notice a woman as she great features and looks very sexy. Sometimes I think she's hot and maybe I would like to kiss her.

So maybe its all about me wanting to be more stylish and sexy or wanting to kiss a girl.I think I'm curious, but I'm still not sure if I would ever completely change sides. I'm back into men at the moment. But maybe one day I will satisfy my curiosity.

Another boring post about Men

I really have becoming selective when it comes to men. I love my new found maturity when it comes to men. Behaviour that I would of accepted in the past. Like - I want have one night stand with you, but im not going to kiss or meet at my flat, I dont want to meet in a public place the first time I meet you or can I fuck you without a condom. I wouldnt hesistate to tell any of these guys to fuck off , now.But at the time I accepted all these things. Because I wanted to make a guy happy,or I wasnt self assured enough to say no. I have probably have become to self assured or confident .

Im not afraid to say no or tell a guy to get lost because he making unreasonable requests.My sharp tongue spoken and written sometimes offends men. I forget that men can be sensitive and their are things they do not want to talk about.

I think its important to talk about sexual health/practises. But most guys ignore you when you ask about.I have to ask because I really care about my sexual health

The dread

Last weekend I went to see my grandad. He has come to the uk to spending some time with his family. Since the last time I saw him , he has had to have most of one of legs aputated.I was dreading seeing what remainded of the leg. I thought I might cry. I walked thru the flat door and before I had even taken my coat off. My grandfather was rolling up his trousers to show me his leg. I didnt cry , but I felt incrediably sad and upset. I tried not show it. He probably thought it was best to get it over and done with. My cousin later told me he done the exact same thing with her.Its obvious that he getting older and ill health has started to affect him. But im sure he will be around for a while