Topsy Turvy

Date: Apr 29, 2007

Life is strange, you think things are going to go one way but it ends up going the other way.I'm suppose to be buying a flat but it looks like it going to fall thru. My heart was set on it . But I'm going to have to forget about it. I'm thought I had found the one but its looks like I'm going to have to find another one I like. I had started looking at furniture and imagining inviting friend round for meals and entertaining.

But now I have to stop thinking about those things again and start the search for a flat again. Its back to drawing board or back to square one again.Another thing I have found strange, is my inability to attract ladies. I'm not ugly and have a shapely body for a plus size girl.At the begin of the year when I decided I wanted to satisfy my bi curious side. I thought it would be relatively easy to get some pussy.

But nothing has happen. I have made one female friend. Girls must be harder to pull.Towards the end of the week I will go and see my doctor to see if I can get refer to gynecologist in regards to my sexual pain problem. I have noticed drinking less alcohol has made it less painful.

Im working on firming up pelvic floor muscles to see if that helps. I'm also going to see if I get refer to counselor to sort out a few issues.I have to see if I can help some help and figure out a few things.