Single and Hunting

Date: Oct 24, 2006

I don't know if I mentioned I was going to singles party. Any way I went to one on friday night and I wasn't very successful. I attracted a young man who had one part of his shirt tucked in and crumbs around his mouth. I was surprised when he asked for my number and I gave him my number because I felt like I couldn't say no.He has being calling but I haven't answered my phone. He isn't my type.

Everyone who attended had their photo taken and you could put your flirt card under their photo if you fancied them and wanted to know them better.However it didn't really work for me because I never been the kind of person to look at a photo and know whether I wanted to date a person . I could tell if I fancy them and thats about it.I also attracted a 41 year old male. But I feel the age gap is too big and we probably wont want the same things. I did use my flirt cards but so far I haven't heard anything yet and I'm not holding my breath.Its funny going out on the hunt for a man has made me realise that I may not want one unless he is right for me and I wont date someone who isn't right . I don't feel like I'm in any rush to meet one of the many people who could be right for me. The best thing about the night was the chocolate fountain where you could dip fruit and other food .

The music was good as well I had a good boogie.So now the only hunting I will be doing is flat hunting for my new home. I had been feeling a bit depressed and anxious about being single and other things. I had got into a very negative place where I imagined that all my friends and family and colleagues didn't really like me. They were putting up with me because they felt sorry for me.

Sometimes I get so paranoid you think I smoked cannabis.But I'm feeling much better. I think winter makes you feel depressed and lonely. I have also decided no to bother with people who cant be bothered to contact me. I feel like I shouldn't waste my energy or love giving it to people who don't return it. Loving a person who does not return your love can be a very draining experience