Resistance is futile

Date: Nov 12, 2006

Its been a two months and maybe a couple weeks or maybe three months since I last had sex.I was doing so well and focusing on other things. Im still pretty sure that I dont want to return to having sex with strangers. However this wasnt how I planned things to be. In my plan I was suppose to stop having sex with strangers and find a loving relationship. However the loving relationship has eluded me.

So now im without sex and horny but most of the time I can control the level of horniness but its get a little out of control. I went to dinner with a male friend / potential boyfriend.He was changing his top and I saw his stomach and it looked very sexy and i realised he had quite sexy arms. I dont know if I have being starving so that the reason he looks good or whether I really like him. Its the old chesnut - Im too scared to ask him if he likes me in that way, in case he doesnt and we damage the friendship. Im also not sure whether I really like him in that way or just been single for too long.

I need to give it more time to figure it out.The reason I called him potential boyfriend is he has alot of the qualities I like and always pays for my meal and tickets when we go out. Im quite a few interested offers in my in box and im starting to feel resistance is futile. But the thought I might regret it is looming in my head. I had made a promise to save my self for my next loving relationship but its harder than I thought it would be.

In other new Albums of the week - Justin Timberlake - Futurelovesexsounds - a very sexy and emotional listen one for the lovers.Amy Winehouse - Back to Black - Im loving this album I relate to Amy and her views on love especially songs - back to black and love is losing game.

Also shout out to Ms Hilton her album is very britney like but a good listen