Date:May 21, 2006
My friend who I met on this site invited him to me to his home address. We decided we were going to see if we could be fuck buddies. We meT for coffee in the middle of last year but it didn't go anywhere but we stayed in touch.However when we got his it turned into an one handed intervention. He said that I need to meet men and it shouldn't always be via the internet. I need to find other ways to meet men apart from the net.
I felt touched that someone would take the time out to talk to me and tell me that they were concerned. He had good reason to be concerned as regards to internet dating he has been there done that and bought the t-shirt.Maybe I'm kind of some freak but every man I have ever met has been via the internet. He said he concerned about me and my behavior towards men and sex. He mentioned some of the things that I had done recently. I had to admit there is a problem and I realise it . I don't know how I became this girl.
I feel like the Macbeth of Sex. I have gone too far and I dont know a way back.I am now in a place men-wise that makes me scared and fearful. If I was approached by a man in a bar I would be unlikely to take things further as I would too afraid as I haven't read his profile first. Internet meetings have given me a fear of unknown and dating socially. It makes you lazy and its really easy to do and get obssessed with.But I'm taking action to sort it out and figure out what I want in my head.
I have to admit that I have been a bit screwed up about sex recently.Its hard to explain how but I have been so shy to touch the other person and make it a two a way experience. Sex with me has been boring for the past couple of sessions.Me and my buddy did screw to finish the evening off and it was a nice experience started off a bit awkward but we got there in the end
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