Lack of Sex

Date: Jul 23, 2006

Its been a couple of interesting days. I feel like a teenager again and thats not a good thing.Sometimes I get into a slump in my life. I get really lazy I stop going to the gym. I watch a lot of porn and masturbate with out focus. I watch sex and the city dvds and drink wine. I don't answer the phone. I also sleep a lot.

When I was a teenager I wasted my time staying in my room masturbating and then going to sleep.These were not good times. Life is to be enjoyed not spent sitting in your house wasting your time.I think its lack of sex which is making slumpy as I like to call it. I might be sleeping with an old fbuddy next week to relieve the tension.But he likes to cancel at the last minute so who knows.

Even thou I'm in a slump and not harnessing my sexual energy by masturbating regularly. I am so happy I'm not sleeping with strangers anymore. I am relieved I saw the light.My creative writing course was really helping as it gave me something to focus on but I finished my two assessment and I have to wait for my next assessment to arrive in the post.Unfortunately there will be six month gaps from writing a letter to my sponsored child and receiving a response. So it wont be taking up as much as my time as I hoped.

I was suppose to go to art gallery this morning but I spent most the day watching on line porn and masturbating which isn't good. I need to make more friends and go out more. I hope to go to more music gigs and clubs and try new things.

I also have my first driving lesson next week and will be attending a dating event next month. I don't think I'm actually looking to meet someone for a relationship but I do like meeting people its fun.