Home on a Saturday Night

Date:Sep 24, 2005

Its a Saturday Night and I am home. Its partly because my mum funeral was yesterday. I am giving myself time to grieve. So I am at home because it doesnt feel right go out.The problem with staying is amplifies my loneliness and makes it more obvious that my mother has gone.It makes me cry and feel sad although this time is painful.

I think its necessary to help me grieve and eventually move on but never forget.I havent been answering my phone because I dont want talk to anyone. I managed to do some laundry and spring cleaning in my bedroom. I try to keep myself busy.But sometimes all I want to do is lie down and do nothing. I am doing my blog to help get my feelings out.Because I always found writing therapeutic